Back from Job corps

Ok so i graduated from Job Corps about a month ago and I am just now updating my blog. I hope to blog more.

The job search has been met with some hurdles. I got a job in landscaping for like two days, then i got a job offer for a job that was way better: better hours, better pay, etc. i had to go in for paperwork and a drug test the next day or i wouldnt get it so i had to make a split second decision. I ditched the landscaping job.

Then they never called me back for the job that seemed to be mine. I am still confident it will come through but I'm doubting more and more as time goes on. Truthfully i should've stuck with the job i was working with an independant contractor friend of my uncles. I was learning more and doing better there. It wasnt guaranteed to be stable, but maybe the risk was worth it.

A couple days ago a friend from job corps told me i should start a business, the same day my sister told me the same. I do have the basic knowledge i need in basic maintenance and construction but am I good enough to do it myself. I dont think so yet, besides i need tools and a vehicle. Not to mention insurance and a million other things. Still i could easily get a "real" job and pursue that when i save up and get a little more capital and knowledge.

Last night i had a dream that i started my own landscaping business and was working for a friend in our church. It was like a dream job (no pun intended) i felt fulfilled. Is it possible that God is calling me for more than the 9-5 paycheck to paycheck kind of life? I really cant figure it out...

Until then I dont know what to think...but i will start trying to blog more even though after so long of being inactive nobody probably reads this blog anymore...oh well...